I haven’t been here forever, just wondering, if any of my online buddies still hang around here, I’m so late to discover that Tumblr is no more of a “pornsite“, like, some of my art got flagged just because of male shirtless factor, like what? There weren’t even nipples showing XD
Been thinking about surgeries and hysterectomy again, but to be honest, I’m scared of hysterectomy, and I admit it, apart from top surgery, where everything heals on your outer body, scars that you can touch, having your uterus or any other inner organ removed is pretty horrifying, man, how it even heals inside? Even thinking of it is pretty stressing, but it’s gonna be worth it :)
That wasn’t so bad, was it? You’ve came so far, but still can’t grow a beard XD
Hello. First of all, I am
not even sure how I am supposed to start writing this post. Second of all, I
don’t know how to feel about it. I have thought a lot about this and I have
decided to do it. Not because I am feeling desperate, but because I need help. Third
of all, I would very much appreciate if you all read all of this. It would
actually mean the universe to me, if you did.
PREVIOUS UPDATES. (these updates aren’t important right now but in case you want to know all of my story.)
NEW UPDATE (URGENT):
Hey guys. It’s been a while. I haven’t updated because I honestly thought my last update would be it. But I need help. MORE than EVER. Today it isn’t about me or my depression/anxiety. It’s about one of my cats, Stiles. Today, August 14th, has been an awful day. Just like the past fews days. My great grandmother has passed away last week and my cat Stiles is terribly sick. Some of you probably don’t know but I live in Portugal, a country that has recently been affected by a lot of wild fires. Many people died, over than 1000 people lost their houses. Thankfully, I wasn’t affect by it but the smoke affected my cat’s asthma. For those who know me, know as well how much this cat means to me. He is only 4 years old but he has been at the vet for 2 days now. He has asthma and pneumonia (which I have no idea how he got it). He couldn’t breathe on his own, he doesn’t eat and he has a lot of pain. I had to pay 50€ in advance at the vet (as it says in the picture right after Serviço Adiantamento = Advanced Service) which was all of the money I got left for me and my meds. I can’t pay for my cat’s treatment unless I get help. The vet told me the treatment would be AT LEAST 100€ and I can NOT afford it at all.
He is staying at the vet to get oxygen and antibiotics and today I called them to get news. He is stable for now but he still won’t eat. You have no idea how scared I am. Stiles was my only company when I had to move out or got worsed from my depression and anxiety. Stiles was my company for all of it. Stiles is more than just my pet. I really need my cat to be alright. I am scared that this might be fatal for him. He is VERY fragile. He is literally all the happiness I have got left. I would rather pay for his treatments than for mine and I really mean it. I am desperate. I am scared. I really need your help. Please, if you can donate, even if it’s just a little, I will be forever thankful to you. I will keep you updated and post pictures of Stiles as soon as I visit him. My paypal e-mail is gabrielasantosmmoreira@gmail.com in case you wish to donate for my cat’s treatment. Please. PLEASE. I am honestly desperate and I have never been more desperate and scared than I am right now.
I went to visit Stiles today at the vet. I couldn’t bring him home because he still won’t eat on his own but he is breathing better and looks much better than it did on Saturday. I took these two pictures so I can update you all.
Stiles has been so strong. He is doing much better. He is already eating by himself. Unfortunately, his breathing is still a bit bad so he had to stay another day at the vet. I am going to bring him back home tomorrow afternoon. The treatment he is getting is going to be a little bit more expensive than I was expecting because he had to stay at the vet in obvservation for 5 nights (that’s about 20€ a day plus medication, plus food, plus the antibiotics I will have to buy for him). I already got a few donations that were very helpful and to those people I owe my entire heart and soul. And to those who have been sharing and helping me and Stiles. Stiles is my priority and always has been. He was so happy to see me and my mom today. I just can’t wait to bring him back home. I don’t mind that he stays at the vet another day, as long as he gets 100% better.
Here’s the pictures I took him today. He already stands up and purrs a lot.
My paypal e-mail is gabrielasantosmmoreira@gmail.com in case you wish to donate for Stiles’ treatment. Thank you. So very much.
August 18th: Yesterday I got Stiles back. He was happy. He was happy to be home. But today it all got worse. I had to take him back to the vet. He kept bouncing with his head and his eyes were constantly moving from one side to the other. I thought it were probably secundary effects from all the antibiotics he had took. It wasn’t. I took him back and the doctor told me it could be an ear infection. Or it could be a virus or a bacteria. It could be a fungus or parasites. But it could also be a brain tumor… He won’t eat. He wants to though. He tries to. But still won’t eat. He looks so skinny. He’s not the same cat he was two weeks ago. I am terrified. Stiles is my EVERYTHING. He literally is. I am scared. I am terrified and I want Stiles back to normal. I need him to be at his 100% so I can be at my 100% as well. I can not deal with this. I can’t let him die. The treatment is going to be way too expensive. I need all the help I can get. Please, spread this post as much as possible. I swear to you, Stiles is all I got left. He is my company, my best friend.
August 23rd: Stiles is home! I am very happy even though he’s still not eating but today I went back to the vet and he told me it was his stomach. His stomach is dilated which is why he won’t eat. It causes him discomfort and pain. The doctor also comfirmed he doesn’t have a brain tumor. He has a pulmonary lesion which is also why he won’t eat. He still needs to take antibiotics and still needs to keep being seen by the vet. The bill is terrifying for me. A lot of people have helped me already and I already paid a little with the money that was donated to Stiles.
These are the rest of the bills. As you can see, it’s over than 200€. If you can give away at least 1€ for Stiles’ treatment, it will be already VERY helpful. I am so glad Stiles is back home and I just want him to be healthy. My paypal e-mail is gabrielasantosmmoreira@gmail.com in case you wish to donate.
Words aren’t enough to describe how thankful I am to all of you. I love you all so much. Stiles and I do. Thank you.
August 30th [URGENT]:
Fortunately, I managed to pay almost half of Stiles’ treatment thanks to the people who donated so far. I couldn’t be more thankful to those angels who have been saving me and Stiles.
Unfortunately, this is a really urgent/desperate update for me. This is the money I have in my bank account at the moment:
Which isn’t enough to pay for the rest of Stiles’ treatment. This bill is from yesterday. Stiles had to take a dewormer
that costs 9.75€.
This other bill is the money from Stiles’ treatment that I’ve got left to pay (159,67€).
I need your help. If you can donate or reblog to spread the word, I will be forever thankful, like I already am. My paypay e-mail is gabrielasantosmmoreira@gmail.com if you wish to donate.
Please, spread the word if you can’t donate.
You’ll end up really disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them. Not everyone has the same heart as you.
Made my own homemade packer just now, since international shipping for real packers cost so much, and I cannot afford that, it looks better in real life haha
Laughter from anyone who realises condoms are not the only form of birth control.
Louder laughter from those that remember that STDs and STIs are an actual thing that happen whether one is on the pill or not.
Laughter stops as people remember that STDs and STIs are an actual thing that happen whether one is on the pill or not.
Literally everyone, regardless of orientation, mutters awkwardly and shuffles away as they remember that STDs and STIs are an actual thing that can happen to anyone who is sexually active, and not just heterosexual people.
